I got a shocking news today...the person I was with before is getting married. I was numb, shocked and partly sad. Thought I have forgotten him, always wondered is he married yet, is he happy or miserable. Sometimes I wish he is misreable. Worst of all he's getting married to the very person who was the caused of our separation.

Guess it was not meant to be but me being human I can't help it to think why...

Now my life is not as easy as I thought it will be. My career is ok..no problem so far. But my love life sucks. I'm getting tired with all the games guys play. Currently, the person that I am so closed with just kept quite. No news..nothing as if I'm invisible. Like nothing had happen between the two of us before. I'm dumbstruck. The next guy came..nice and the connection is there but he's got a girl. Said that he's having trouble but can I believe that? I don't think so.

I pray everyday for God to give me strength to face all of this. I can say " I will survive" but
can I really? The question left unanswered...