Incomplete..that's how I feel right now. I've seen my friends crossing the bridge from bachelorhood to marriage life. I envy them yet happy for them. I want to be in that place but I know deep down inside I am still afraid...afraid to go through that journey. I've seen and experienced too much that it has actually scarred me deep inside. I never realised this..I think the problem for me to even find a guy is because I'm too afraid. No one could understand how I feel. It seems like I'm too confused to choose 'the one' in my life but the problem actually lies within myself. That I admit. My mum's getting worried. I've tried to tell but I'm not good with words. Everytime a guy comes into my life, it went well. Somehow as things progress, I'll have my doubts..I start to pull back. Maybe just maybe I'm too afraid to get hurt...yup that could be true...
Hmmm..aside from that. I had a great weekend of relaxing last weekend after 2 weeks of rushing here and there. I went back to my hometown and just didn't do anything at all but sleep. But me being me, I felt bored when I'm not in a rush. It's just in me..I have to do something to occupy myself. If not I'll start to think too much and we know, when we think too much, it's really really bad. Yikes!! Need to do something about that...and the worse part, I actually like coming to work. How pathetic is that??? Gees...get me out of here...
Do something that makes me happy...guess currently if that will make me happy..I will!! I'm so pathetic...
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